i just cant act normal, ill get a house that ill take care of on private property in a community for schizophrenics. i hear voices in my head and theyve destroyed my life. cant really bear with the situation delt, since my schizophrenia is just going to get worse. there i can take meds and hopefully in a private setting smoke or vape. trying to geet modern, im 36 🙂 there i can meet people similar to me and make a new life, hopefully somewhere where the climate is cool